Fragments of the Dying Man is a personal experiential journey of fragility, loss and desire. A diary of someone precariously juggling life and death, desiring to live and also having the fear of reaching the end. A death of a lover and sickness becomes the raison d'être of this work.
The act of photography is the pretext to get closer. To reconcile. The act of having a dual life: one in a vulnerable position of solitude and the other, in the personal spaces of strangers . Some stay. Some fade away.
It oscillates between Positions and Situations. Light and Dark. Day and Night. What’s in control and what’s not. The lines are blurred.
The images are soiled, weary, damaged and fragile just like my own life and its travesty.
Positions indicates my loneliness in a cold upstate New York home, vast yet confined with so little happening, looking outside for love and sometimes inside, often photographed by strangers here.
Situations are my encounters with strangers in New York City. Confined, intimate and visceral. Much like me, everyone I desire through an image lives a life of ambiguity, a dual existence.
Textual passages, archival conversations with a lost lover and other anecdotes become the structural chord to what is amorphous, ever escaping, loosely held together in this diary of excess.
Through this I try to live up to my own questioning of desire and the inarticulate form that is called love.
I seek the other and in this constant pursuit of desire, pleasure, fear, doomed to fail , I find my own reconciliation. I define my own position.
A position to not only explain my life, not only to implicate the self in situations of anonymity, not to question modes of reproducing images, but also to question ideas of how we look at bodies, identity, gender, how we think about desire and fear. By provoking situations in people and sometimes being part of a situation, I continue the endless search of what it means to be here. A character in the game we know as life.
“The Eye of the other into my diaristic experiences” ..
2014-2019. Book in progress